I hope they ask about me & I hope you tell them you fucked up.
Who am I kidding? You’ll never love me. You’ll never fight for me. You’ll never want me back. And I have to keep on living, in between hope and heartbreak for you, because there is no in between. Some part of me will always long for you, some part of me will always wonder. What happened to us and why I still love you despite all the dead ends. Despite it all. The most tragic part of my life is that I see no future without you, but here I am, living in it. Losing you was inevitable, losing you is inevitable. Losing you is my destiny, and it’s the hardest thing I have to live with.
c / I keep waiting for the sun to survive through the night
“i still love you. you know that right? i always did, probably always will. lord knows i was never good at letting things - or people - go.”
-and other things i’ll never tell you. c.r.
Grief. It’s a shit combination of trying to move on, not wanting to, and doing your best to survive. This is the painful reality of loss.
I loved you,
even at times
you didn’t deserve it.
To me,
you were a priority.
To you,
I was just an inconvenience
until it came to your convenience.






